another hurdle i just need to jump over.

i just had ics and we checked to see if we had everything we needed for the cori form before we were gonna go to the post office. then the ics worker said to me, "it says here you need a valid license or id.. do you have one?" then i said, "well they told me when i went to get my permit renewed that i needed a doctor's note and i told them i just wanted an renewed id, so i could fly and to have proof of my citizenship." then i told them the doctor already said i couldn't drive, so i couldn't get a doctor's note. then they just gave me a paper saying my citizenship was valid, so i could just use that when i flew. the ics worker said, "did you tell them that you just wanted a renewed id and no permit to drive?" and i said, "yeah and that's why they just gave me a paper verifying my citizenship which i had to use the last time i took a plane to boston." then she told me to call the housing agency in massachusetts and ask them if my birth certificate could be used for a valid cori form and they said that it probably wouldn't work because they require a picture id to verify the cori id- so the ics worker said she'd just have to bring me to get a new id herself and explain to them that i don't want my driving privileges renewed- just a new id so i can get it notarized. she's gonna take me tomorrow morning to try to get my id again. the dmv might not think they can talk outta their asses if i have her explain to them what i need.
here's the thing- i KNOW amanda assumed that being my advocate would be just as easy as when my grandma was my mom's advocate. WE'RE TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE. she has different conditions and circumstances than i do. i'm not going to allow people to just do what's convenient for them when supposedly "helping" me get what I want done with my life. she should've figured that seeing as i KNOW she knew that i got my TBI after running off to new york and meeting a guy, who turned out to be the drunk driver. she may have thought i might have changed my goals from moving to new york but it's not fair for her to just take the easy way out and assume she doesn't have to advocate for me with empty phrases of encouragement like "YOU GOT THIS!" it was cool at first but after receiving no help or communication in general from the person supposedly taking my grandma's position in my life- i've came to the conclusion my grandma was an overly hopeful naive old woman. thanks a lot amanda for making my grandma look bad and uncaring to me. YOU GOT THIS! i hate to tell my careless, selfish family that just because they play stupid when it comes to helping me move to ANOTHER STATE FAR AWAY FROM THEM.. does NOT mean i'll just drop my goals which i nearly died for JUST FOR THEIR CONVENIENCE. it also doesn't mean i'll ever talk to them again. right now- pretty much the only people i have a desire to talk to is my cousin joe, my brother jay, and my aunt debbie. the rest of my family has shown their true colors and lack of support/care for me at one time or another. i may have a traumatic brain injury but i'm NOT A STUPID MAT YOU CAN STEP ON WHENEVER YOU FEEL LIKE IT WHEN IT'S CONVENIENT FOR YOU AND ONLY YOU.